Holy Moly!

Interesting night at the masters acting class. I had an audition pop up for tomorrow night so I spent all day working on a two minute monologue for it. Put it up in class, got the notes on it. All is good. Will work on it tomorrow before the audition.

At the end of class it was my turn to sing a song. As some of you who actually read this may know I totally bailed on the musical audition last week. I won't say out of fear... let's call it terror. I have actually never sung in front of anyone save my singing coach before. And while they say you sing well, you are also paying them so I tend to take it with a measure of salt. hey, I'm cynical.

Plus I was going to sing a number from the show I was trying out for and was scared I would destroy it and humiliate myself.

I put the same song up tonight at acting class. I figured what the hell. It was at the end of class so of course I had three hours for the terror to build. Did it once, trembling all the time. Then the coach had me do it a second time, focusing more on an imaginary person.

Much to my surprise they loved it. Both times. They did not know that I was terrified nor that I had never sung in public. I am amazed, still processing. My coach said that I have a beautiful voice. Several people were amazed that I do not have a son (the song is a father singing of his son). Everyone genuinely enjoyed it.

I'm all astonishment. This is no small thing for me. One of my biggest fears, stumbling blocks wiped away. I have always been terrified of singing in public, you know that I would suck! LOL Wow.

I told everyone that I had bailed on the audition because of this song, of my fear. My coach did not upbraid me for it but said the next time the audition comes around, don't be afraid to but it up. There were a lot of compliments but I'll let it alone...